SAD… A.F.

05/04/2017

SAD… A.F.

03/03/2016

hello
goodnight
i miss you
goodbye
dont you remember
close…
just listen
…your eyes
okay, you said forever
till i die
but you’re still alive
you must be blind
i see you everyday
please,search your mind
what do you mean
it lies
what lies
your mind
how so
i’m not alive
yes you are
I’ve been gone
i see you
for so long
no
open your eyes
okay
what do you see
nothing
that is me
where are you, how come i hear you
you dont hear me, i am nothing
please
no
come back
i can’t
you dont love me
i still do
and our one plus one
doesn’t make a 2

25/04/2016

it has been difficult to put recent things into words
but you’re here, in this trance
and lets hope that our tongues don’t turn into swords
sleep tight and cigarette daydream

15/11/2016 — (I had a dream i was up in the hills),
05/04/2017 — (I wrote about the dream)
with a girl who was more pretty than flowers could be
and i explored her mind, and found that it had treasures sailors would kill to find
we had shared a cigarette as the world grew quiet around us
it was genuine, she was cool. she had a love, sweet young blissful love it was
I was content with existence, with the occasional crises it gave me
In this trance
and our interactions outside this trance
it was perfect.

But seasons changed, and sometimes even the best do not remain
Bloom again…
Bloom again…
And let me gaze at uncorrupted beauty again
Beauty that will spread…
Beauty that will spread like wild fire.
Now, and until our atoms disperse, collide and the big bang becomes nothing but a whimper.

Goodbye …